Moving on. Seems so -fucking- hard for me to do that small 'word' become a reality. Seems like…. there's no other option for me to moving forward. Hanging on with this un-comfortable condition. But……I'am so thankful to you to make me strong like this and how pity I become. Trapped at the same mistake (again and again). I wondered why I could be like this. Like a stupid girl who had a stupid summer romance. Could we erase the memories? How if we never meet before? May I ask you some question like….. "why did you say that you love me so much but then you did break it?" or "why does everyone need to moving on?". I can't tell you what it really is, I can only tell you what it feels like. Feels not good at all. If someday I said I'am okay. Please just realized that's not totally I am. Everyone thoughts that I'am too strong to let go. Too strong to face it all by myself. Now I know we said things, did things that we didn't mean. And we fall back into the same patterns, into the same routine. But wait, have I ever told you that you've been my routine for 7 months passed? Haaaaaahhhhh…..then what should I do? I really need to find someone better than you, and I know you need to find a better girl than me too. We both need it, right? So far…..you're the best guy I've ever had. The best that I ever wanted. You said that we could through this as long as we wanted, as long as the time permit us to find others. You said that we don't need to forget the memories, but the aim is you forget the important part of the path. The reason why you acted like that. I remembered how did it ruin us both. How could you forget every single things that we've spent.
